Moving...

As I lay on my bed last night settling down, I thought I felt a little kick.  I pulled up my shirt and watched and sure enough a little kick came again.   OMG...I txt my IM and said this kid is already moving.  I'm 13 weeks today!!!  She said maybe I had gas (LOL), but as I lay there and watch, he was doing turns.  It lasted breifly, but the baby is officially moving.   We are so excited to find out what it is so my IM can start painting and planning.  Happy New Year everyone.  I have a feeling this will be a VERY good year for a lot of us!!!!!

I TOLD....

So I finally told my job!!!!!!!!!  I'm not a person to share all my business at my job so this was very hard for me.  I prayed about it, lost sleep over it and just wanted to make sure I said the right things and told them enough but not go into a lot of detail.  Well.....it was pretty painless.  They all took it very well and asked questions here and there.  One person said....are you sure you want to do this????  Well...it's a little too late if not because I'm growing a baby inside of me and it's not mine!!! LOL  Some people are funny!!  Some said, how are you going to feel afterwards handing the baby over....well since I haven't done it yet, I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to feel, however, I know when I see my IP's holding that sweet baby for the first time I will feel like I accomplished a miracle!!!!!!!!!!  So as for now, my bosses that I work with (all men) know and the other people throughout the office will just have to speculate, talk about me, wonder if I'm fat or pregnant (but not dare ask) until it all gets out.  Until then...on to something else.

We had our first OB visit and it went really well.  I'm on track for a c-section July 1, 2011.  Of course many things could happen between now and then, but we'll just pray that it doesn't and by the 4th of July I should be home resting and recouping.  It sounds far away, but I know it's going to fly by.  My birthday is July 20 and I already told the girls to get ready, we'll be heading somewhere nice and fun for a mini vaca!!!!    The baby's heartbeat was 160 today and my OB was happy to meet my IM and congratulated us all and sent us on our merry way.  We don't go back for 5 weeks now and then we'll be on the regular monthly appointments.

Another thing is my butt if finally feeling better from not doing the shots every night.  When I run (thru the office or whatever..not actually run..I would probably croak) I can still feel a little soreness from where I got my shots.  Now that I'm off, I think I realized how many side effects I was having...how tired, hormonal, on edge and being starving but everything tasting horrible.  At least now I'm just starving but when I eat, it USUALLY tastes good.   Now just preparing for my family coming in town for Christmas and I'm so super excited!!! Finally me and my daughter don't have to travel...everyone is coming to us!!! And this will be the first time I've seen my family since I've been pregnant..so I'm sure I'll hear how big I look or how much I'm showing..but that's ok..it's expected!!!  I may or may not blog before Christmas so to everyone reading this, may God bless each of you this holiday season, have a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy, Healthy new year to come!!!!

Design and Things

This has nothing to do with surrogacy.    This has everything to do with making my blog cute!!!!  How do I do it?? LOL  I can only get the ugly designs to come up and can't seem to find cute backgrounds.  I'm new to this and want my blog to be cute!!!! Bloggers...please help!!!

Sleeping???...Not me!!

I'm not sure I know what a full night of sleep feels like anymore.  I wake up at 3am every morning and have to pee and then can't go back to sleep til about 5 or 5:30 and then this annoying buzzing starts going off around 6:20 and I'm not a happy camper!! LOL  I would say that my body is just preparing me for the sleepless nights that are to follow, but can't this baby someway know that I won't have to go thru those sleepless nights and just let me sleep.  I guess it doesn't work like that. :) Thank goodness Tay still likes to take naps on the weekends and I don't always partake in them, but this weekend I most definitely will.  I'm tired...but it's all worth it for me...for that reward at the end.  It's worth every night not sleeping!!!!!

NO MORE SHOTS!!!

I went to the Dr. last Saturday and they cleared me of taking any more shots.  I was soooooo happy and relieved of that.  Whatever they are counting is supposed to be higher than 15 and I was 16.6 so I am free and clear to see my regular OB on a regular schedule.  We had our initial nurse visit with my OB this past Friday and my IM got to go with me and meet the nurse that I had with Tay.  They are so great there and my nurse was really excited to hear what I was doing.   My nxt appt. is on Tues. where I will get to see Dr. Brothers, my regular OB and IM will get to go with me to meet her.  So looks like we are on a regular scheduled pregnancy. My due date is July 6, but I will have another C-Section so looks like the last week of June if all goes well I'll be blessing my IP's with a new baby.  Can't wait...so exciting!!!   I still haven't told my job!!!! I seriously need to as I'm sure they are all thinking I'm fat!!! LOL 

Behind

So I know I'm behind but things have been happening and I can't seem to catch up.  The best thing that has happened in recent is one of my  best friends gave birth to her son!!!!!!!!!!!  So super awesome and love him sooo much.  Tay has been keeping me busy as always and now the holidays are here.  However, we had a dr. appointment yesterday and it was amazing!!!  The baby is doing AWESOME and we got some of the best pics.  The first pic is from 11/7 which it was barely a dot.  We went back yesterday which was 11/30 (just 23 days later) and there is a baby in there!! LOL  A real baby. It is so awesome because with a regular pregnancy you don't get pics this early and definitely not 3D pics.  The dr. measured the baby from head to toe 1 inch...LOL  But you can already see his arms crossed and little nubs for legs.  The heart rate was 165 and we are measuring a day ahead and tomorrow I'm 9 weeks!!!  I take my shots thru Thurs. skip Friday and go to the dr. on Sat.  If my hormone levels (I think) are high enough I get to stop the shots.  I can honesly say they haven't been as bad as I invisioned.  With that said, I totally will NOT be upset if I get to stop the shots!! LOL  So that's our next step.  We have an appt. on Friday with my regular OB and it will be fun to see her again. She knows I was planning this so for her to actually meet my IM and know that I'm pregnant again for someone else will be fun!!!!!!!!    So that's all for now. I'll update on Sat and let you all know if I get to stop the shots (praying) or if I have to stay on them for a bit longer.   The pics are below...it was the best I could do. LOL

It's Finally Hitting Me...

Well I think pregnancy has hit me.  It's not that I feel terrible, it's just that NOTHING sounds good, so I try several different things and nothing tastes good and then I start to feel nauseous.   I'm 7 weeks on Thurs. so hopefully that means only feeling like this for the most 5 weeks, but hopefully it'll pass after week 8 or so.  It only hit me this weekend and I'm already tired of it, however, anything for a new baby is worth it!!  Other than that, this baby is pretty lucky because he gets hugs and kisses from Tay every single night!!! LOL

First Official Sonogram

Today was our first official sonogram.  I'm 6 weeks today and we got to hear the heartbeat!!!!  There is only ONE baby in there!!! I think me and IM were both very pleased to find that out.  The heartbeat was 109 and the Dr. said that is VERY good considering it's only 6 weeks and anything over 90 is great!! Sooo..I think we have a healthy little peanut in there as of now.  We got pics and even got the 3D sono already so we could literally see the little tiny peanut looking baby.  Amazing.  I'm so excited, but it's such a different excitement this time.  It's excitement that I will get to present this gift to them, yet let him (yes, I'm already saying him because I already think it's a boy...LOL) grow inside of me.  I can't explain the feeling, but its definitely a different feeling.  I go back in 2 weeks and then get released to my regular OB....which will be nice because she's literally 5 minutes from me rather than 30 minutes!!! I guess its time to tell my job.  I thought I'd wait, but I swear I already have a baby bump!!!  Won't be able to hide it much longer...guess my mom was right when she told me I'd show a lot quicker with the second!!!!

A rough couple of days

As you know I went in on Sunday for a sono because I was bleeding.  Sunday the bleeding stopped and Monday it came back.  I again called the dr. and she instructed me to 24-48 hours of bed rest or until the bleeding stopped.  I went on bed rest (as much as you can with a 3 yo) and Tuesday while on bed rest I felt a migraine coming on.  All of you who have been pregnant know there is NOTHING you can take when you get a headache let alone a migraine.  Tylenol, thats it, and as many of you know, tylenol does NOTHING!!   So the bleeding stopped mid-day Tuesday and the headache got worse.  I used to get migraines a lot before Tay was born, but since her, I can count on one hand how may I've had.  On Wednesday, it was all I could do to get out of bed.  Every time I stood up I about blacked out and felt like someone was hitting me on the head with pots and pans.   Thank goodness I have wonderful friends who offered to pick up Tay from daycare and keep her until bedtime.  By the time she got home, I felt good enough to sit up and eat and play a little with her and back to bed we went.  Tay was so sweet  and whispered (due to  Auntie Crazy telling her to) and asked if she could rub my head.  She did and we laughed and talked and called it a night.  Today I feel better, not 100% but better and tomorrow is the 6 week sono.  Hopefully we will hear a heartbeat!!! I'm so super excited!!!!!!!!

A little scare...

I have been feeling awesome still.  Seems so weird to me that I'm pregnant and not really feeling much.  However, on Sat. after a fun filled day at the Arboretum with Tay and her 2 friends, I got home that evening and had some bleeding.  It wasn't a lot but I never bled with my last pregnancy so I txted my IM (intended mom) and she said to call the dr.  I called and they wanted me to come in on Sunday morning for a sono to make sure all was well.  So I went and got my sono and everything looked fine.  I go back to the dr. on Friday and as of right now they only saw 1 sac...so we are thinking just 1 egg took (which would be totally ok with me..lol) and hopefully on Friday we can see a heartbeat.  I measured at 5 weeks, 1 day and am right on track. 

Am I REALLY pregnant?

Man I feel great.  I keep asking myself if I'm really pregnant!!!  Of course I am with my HCG count at 792 on Sat and I'm sure well in to the 1000's now.  :)  The only pregnancy "feeling" I'm having is that I go from not hungry to starving in 2 seconds..so I devour some food and an immediately full after 3-4 bites.  I feel bloated all the time.  I already have a pooch with no clothes on...so yeah, thinking I'm going to be huge!! LOL  Oh and my boobs....they are soooo sore!!!! I wear a sports bra 24/7 hoping that nothing touches them and they don't move!!  I make Taylen be very careful because the few times that she had kneeed (is that a word) me has hurt so bad that I wanted to cry.  But other than that, my energy is great, I feel great all day..even mornings and I hope it continues to stay this easy.  I will be 5 weeks on Thurs!!!  Awesomeness!  Oh and November 12 is my first sono....they may be able to tell if I have just 1 baby in there or 2...2 is what I'm going for...better not be 3 or 4!! LOL Whoa!!!!!

My baby and Explaining

I went home thrilled last night to tell Tay that it was confirmed that I had a baby(ies) in my tummy!!!!  She got sooooo excited and said "I want to kiss and hug your belly" and so she did.  Then last night her friends A and C were over and she said "My mommy has a baby in her tummy...but it goes to B and C".  What??  I said I'm having a baby for someone else and he said, someone that doesn't have a baby? Yes, exactly.  Tay then proceed to say, "but the next baby is mine"!!! LOL  I am so happy to have her by my side thru this journey.  Who knows how she'll take it in the end, but right now, it seems like she gets it.  She's right there watching me get my shots and the last shot she had to get she thought she was so big cause mommy gets them and doesn't cry...and she didn't either.  Matter of fact, she was proud to get a shot!!!! LOL  Hopefully this will keep her from a fear of needles that I've alway had.  I'm buying a book that is intended for a surrogate child called "Why I'm So Special, A Book about Surrogacy" that is written for toddlers and intended for a child born to a surrogate but I think will help her understand too.   I can't imagine life without her and God willing I never will, and to be able to present that gift to someone else fills my heart!

Last night in bed as she was crawling over me, Tay said "I won't smash the baby mommy!!"  Such a sweet girl!

Day 2...

As some of you may know and some not, I have decided to become a surrogate mother.  I have thought of doing this for years and it's finally here..finally time!!!  I decided to go through an agency because I didn't know of anyone in particular that needed a surrogate.  My first go around with a couple fell through.  After flying to Pennsylvania to meet them and actually taking the first step in going to the dr., they decided they couldn't afford everything and at the same time, I was thinking we didn't really "fit".   Also, after that experience I decided I would really rather have someone here close who could go to dr. appointments with me and who could experience the whole thing.  So I met another couple who live nearby Dallas and we hit it off from the first moment we met.  They are both AMAZING people who love and adore me and Taylen!!!  I couldn't have asked for a better couple and/or better "match".  

Our first meeting was in April and since then we have been going through the process.    The first step in July was to remove my IUD.  Let me tell you, that was extreme pain!! It wouldn't have been, but apparently I have a "tilted" uterus and therefore the dr. had to go "in and down" to get it and it was not pretty.  After about an hour and possible a surgery, she finally pulled that sucker out...and I will NOT ever get another one. LOL  The next step was to get a saline "wash" to clean out my system and to see my uterus and all other things clearly.  Another painful experience, but nothing I couldn't handle.  It took about 10 minutes total, but nonetheless 10 painful minutes. 

Let the meds begin.  I started Lupron shots and pills in August.  I was scared to death. Someone who is as freaked out about needles as I am..scared.  And then to have to do them in my stomach..what?!! LOL Thankfully I was meeting up with my parents the weekend I had to start shots and had my mom give me my very first shot.  It was painless and quick.  I could do this!!  So from then on, every night before bed me and Taylen would sit on the floor, count to 3 and I'd do the shot.  Sometimes it took us counting to 3 several times and Taylen telling me "just do it Mommy" but it got done.  Those shots last until Oct. 13 (or so) and then the "big daddy" shots started...Progesterone.  These needles are HUGE and go in to the muscle so I thought I was freaked out about the Lupron shots, but man oh man was I ever freaked out about these shots.  These go in basically your butt so I was trying to figure out who was going to give them to me or how I was going to do it by myself.  THANK GOD I have amazing people in my life and Taylen's daycare teacher said she'd do it for me Mon-Fri. so I just have to have someone around to do it for me over the weekend.  So far, my brother and friend Leah have been "cursed" with the shot giving!! LOL

THE BIG DAY: October 19, 2010 was the big day..the transfer.  I had to go in with a full bladder and prepare myself for the egg transfer.  I had a full bladder alright and had to sit there for an hour.  I was seriously about to just give up go pee and sit there and drink water until my bladder filled up again..but thankfully my name was called.  We go back to the lab and have 2 "steller" eggs growing.  So they implant the 2 eggs and after taking valium and finally getting to go pee...I couldn't have felt better.  This rush of excitement, nerves and anxious had taken over my body.  Now we wait until day 9 which is Oct. 28 to take a pregnancy test.  I'm praying and have a lot of others praying for me that one or both eggs will develop and that I'm pregnant.  Pregnant, planned this time, but not for me.  For 2 awesome deserving people I am potentially pregnant.  This is the "short" version and I will keep ya'll updated as much as possible.  I'll tell about dating thru this and explaining it all to Taylen.  I hope this is just a start to an amazing journey!

CONFIRMED

Today, October 28, 2010 I am pregnant!!!  I got the call at 3:05 that I am pregnant...with very high HCG count...which is great!!  290 to be exact. I go in Saturday morning to take more blood work to make sure the count has doubled and then all is well.  Today I am 4 weeks pregnant!  Thanks to everyone for their prayers and concerns!