Thursday, May 26, 2011

34 weeks today

that is all!!! LOL  Everyone enjoy your memorial day weekend!  I know I'm going family will be here!!!  5 weeks from tomorrow....OMG!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Scheduled time and date

We had our dr. appointment on Friday (32 weeks) and she went ahead and scheduled my c-section.  Holy gosh, it makes it totally real!!!! July 1, 9:30 a.m. is the BIG day and time!  I can't believe it is 6 weeks away.  How exciting is that!!!!!  So super excited.  Now, if the next 6 weeks will just fly by, as I'm sure they will, we will be good!!! And, this baby needs to stay in there until July 1 and not come early, as none of us have a back-up plan...seriously!!! My mom flies in on June 30.  Everything I have planned is based on her arrival.  My IPs are close thankfully, but they have their schedules set for July 1 also, so Mr. C better stay put!!!  I will try and post pics every week now that we are getting down to the count.

In other news, I met up with another surro this weekend and what a treat she was!!!  We have been planning for months to meet up and with one thing or another coming up, we kept missing each other.  But not Sunday, we were determined.  I don't really get nervous or shy about meeting new people, in fact, I love it, but I could tell she was a little shy at first, and then after reading her blog today...she was...and she was also hoping that I didn't have a manly voice, which thankfully for both of us...I don't!!! LOL  She is absolutely beautiful on the inside and out. I have a good judge of character (or so I like to think) and I think we will make a lifelong friendship after just this first meet and greet.    She has two absolutely gorgeous daughters and after my daughter finally got her shyness out of the way, they all 3 hit it off and played for a couple of hours.  She's just starting out in her journey and I'm getting ready finish up mine, so I'm excited to follow her and suppport her thru her journey as she has done for me.   I'll leave you with a picture of me and her (which I stole from her blog) and next time we will get a pic of our girls, because i'm pretty sure the 3 of them could pass for cute!!! 

Friday, May 6, 2011

Not Surrogacy Related....well kind of...

I just needed somewhere to write and more for my own sake then anyone else's but if you read this great, if not, I don't care!! LOL   I follow a lot of surrogates, some IPs, some infertile couples or couples who are still in the process of trying to have a baby and actually some blogs just about family and some people are so positive no matter what and others, well they are completely negative no matter what.  I don't understand people who are negative all day, every day no matter what comes their way.  It's like if they won the lottery, they would still find the negative in it.  I don't get it.  I'm a happy, upbeat, positive, cup is always half-full type of person and no matter what comes my way, I try to find the good in it.  I know everyone is not like this and I also realize I have been VERY BLESSED in life and not a lot of BAD things have happened to me in my life.  I've lost grandparents in the past, but never an immediate family member, never a best friend, never a child, never a parent and if I had, maybe my life would be different, maybe I would view things differently. I hope not, but I can't say because I have never had that experience.  But I don't think I will ever understand all the negativity and anger people have in life.  I have been reading alot about people who have babies via surrogacy and then they complain about how their child acts or how their schedules have been complicated and I want to yell at them and say you have waited all your life for this child and now all you do is complain about them.  I don't get it and never will!!!!  I have been BLESSED by God with my daughter.  She is the absolute joy in my life and whether she was planned or not (she wasn't at all) I try not to take one moment with her for granted.   We laugh together, we cry together, we yell at each other and we tell each other at least 10 times a day how much we love each other.  Yeah, she might get on my nerves sometimes. Sometimes I wish I had family close by that I could drop her off at to get a night by myself or that her dad was more involved and took her some nights, but I don't have that.  I have her 24/7 with me except for when I'm at work and she's at daycare.   But I'm ok with that.  I try not to complain and I try to be the best mom I can even when I'm tired, stressed or upset about something.  I don't show that side to her and I would NEVER tell her that I wish she would go away or how sometimes I wish I could have some alone time, or that she's "bothering" me and/or my schedule.  Instead I tell her how awesome she is, what an amazing little girl she is and how blessed I am to have her in my life.  She's 3 and trust me, she understands every bit of what I'm saying.  She understands every emotion that I have.  She knows when I'm upset and she tells me it will be ok.  She, out of nowhere, says mommy I love you so much and I want to hug you.  She's the BEST THING IN MY LIFE and for her I'm so thankful.  So to all the parents out there, I pray that you really understand how blessed we are to be raising these kids.  To all the people who want kids but don't have them yet, I pray that you get to experience this blessing and pray that you will treat every moment with that child like its your last.  I pray that no matter your "status", you live every day to the best and that you try to make the negative a positive, because trust me, life is a much happier place when you are happy and positive than when you are down.  I've been down before, I've been depressed before but I still tried to find the positives.  I knew it wouldn't be like that forever, I knew there were better days ahead and there were and I can honestly say, I'm the happiest I have been in a long time.  I don't have it "all" by any means. I don't have the house, the husband, the best car, or a truck load of money, but I do have an amazing family, I have the best friends a girl could want, I have a beautiful, healthy daughter who makes me laugh every single day, a great job (which is hard to come by these days), I'm healthy and I'm carrying a healthy baby boy for some of the most amazing IPs and who are going to love this lil man to death and who will be 2 awesome parents!!!!  I'm happy and I pray for everyone else's happiness....that's my rant for the day!! LOL Be happy people...u only live life once!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

31 weeks today

Holy cow - only 8 more weeks to go.  Had my dr. appt. last week and I passed all the glucose and iron tests and all is great.  The dr. suggested I get a maternity belt and use a lumbar pillow with my lower back hurting, but I haven't gotten either yet and my back has not been hurting.  However, we went to San Antonio last weekend and I used a pillow for the ride down there and back and thank goodness I lifesaver!!!!  Other than that, my IPs are having a BBQ this weekend and I will be "introduced" to the family and all of their friends.  I'm pretty excited...should be a fun day!!!!!!  I'll leave you with a picture of me today and yes...I'm still wearing heels....not every day and usually not all day long, but I just can't help it!